So I'm sitting in bed last night, reading Revelations, and of course this stream of consciousness begins that I can't control. I'm reading about these beasts that come out of the see and the earth and it reminds me of Daniel 7. Daniel 7 takes me back to last school year in my European Civilization class and to the one book I read all the way through the entire semester, Who is David Weiser? (it's pronounced Vicer. It's polish) By Pawell Huelle (Pavell). I wrote a paper on it, discovering all of the biblical themes within the piece, trying to discover the truth behind the title question. I have no clue whether Weiser is supposed to be Jesus or the Devil (two obviously different extremes that should be clear in any allusion).
The most interesting part of it all, though, is that I still think about this. That I'm still puzzling over and trying to solve the answer to this question despite the fact that I no longer NEED to think about it. There's no benefit to me to figure out the truth behind this question. There's nothing for me to gain out of it besides the intellectual satisfaction that, "na na na na na na, I know who David Weiser is and you don't!" Although that may be gratifying in some situations, it doesn't really matter here because so few people have read this book and since it's out of print so few people will EVER read this book that it's just silly to worry about it.
But what is it in certain subjects or certain assignments that makes us cling to them so readily? Why is it that I find this book so fascinating and I'm still searching for the correct answer? I know that in literature there's almost never one absolutely correct answer. Books and allusions can be interpreted in thousands of ways by one single person and a thousand different ones by another person. There really is no reason for me to be so passionate about this book. I've only read it through once, I wrote a paper on it, which I've done for lots of other books, and when the class was over I didn't bother e-mailing my professor an updated copy because it seemed so pointless. Yet still, the quest for that knowledge remains on my mind and in my heart. Solving this perplexing mystery would somehow be extremely satisfying, despite the fact that I would have no one to share this knowledge with. Forget about scholastic achievement in every other college course I take. I will be satisfied with my college career once I discover who David Weiser is.
Have you ever had the joy of the Lord on you so strongly that you just wanted to tell everyone you saw how awesome Jesus Christ is? I felt that way all day today. Not because of anything strongly signifcant or different I've done. Mostly, it's just the little things I'm noticing God has been doing in my life. I've started walking in love, allowing God's love to be perfected in me. I'm able to cast out any fear that comes into my life, even the little fears, like slipping on the ice or doing poorly on a quiz. There is no fear in my life! It's awesome.
I feel like Maid Marian in Robin Hood: Men in Tights. "Oh Jesus, I'm so happy!"
I just can't wait for tomorrow when I can live another day for God. It's just going to be so awesome.
I hope everyone who reads this gets to have this sort of personal and exciting relationship with God sometime during their life. I know Jessie responded to Jenny's little questionaire stating that if she could give her one thing she would give her the "perfect relationship with God." Awesome. I pray that each and every one of you gets to feel that presence and joy in your lives.
Now as for the other things going on in my life, I just gotta say that everything is awesome and falling into perfect place. Craig was here this weekend and it was just such a blessing. I'm so thankful I have him in my life to help me stay on course and just to remind me what it means to love someone. I'm so glad I got to see him and he just makes me so happy. I'm so excited that he gets to go to England and have this awesome experience and to grow in Christ over there. I know he's really looking forward to that growth and experience more than anything. I can't wait to see what kind of person he becomes in Jesus when I see him again in May. He's already such a Godly person and such an amazing man and it's funny, but I see so much more coming out of Craig than already has. It's like what Pastor Duane and his wife were talking about on Sunday at ResLife. They talked about seeing the revelations in people. About seeing God's plan for that person and what he or she will be like in the future. And it's not just about seeing that, but it's about showing them that you believe in that revelation. That you have faith that God's vision for his or her life will come to pass and you tell them what God has in store for them. I know that God has amazing things planned for Craig. And not just for Craig, but for so many other people too. For Jessie and for Keith and for Tod. He's got amazing plans for Jenny and Brian, Chris and Ashley, Zac and Stephanie. He's got plans for Kevin, Zach, and Andy. God's got awesome plans for everyone, and part of walking in love is sharing with people the awesome potential they have with the love, grace, and mercy of Jesus Christ.
In addition to seeing Craig recently, I have been taking great pleasure in working on the His House drama team. I'm making awesome friends there and having a blast too. I look forward to every meeting that we have and I just love spending time with those people. We're working hard to get ready for our big drama night in February and I am so excited to see our work for God pay off for the good of so many people. There are lots of awesome messages in each skit and I think it's going to demonstrate God's love in totally amazing ways.
I'm going home for part of the weekend this weekend. Just to see Craig before he heads off. We're having dinner on Friday and then I'll probably coem back up to GV Saturday afternoon so I can spend some time with Jessie. Uh. There are just so many happy things in my life right now that I could go on forever! haha! But I'll just stop right here. God bless!